Hoping to be in ur arms again

treasure

2010-03-16T06:50:00.000+08:00

these pictures were taken last thursday and friday. awesome time i had with my babies.

they are the greatest aside from my family and the boy ^^

thursday was supposedly to go to bencoolen to have tauhuey but we didn't make it in time and instead met up with the rest at cineleisure and had an impromptu drinking session with the boys and ain. ending up, thonning with dinno, dan, berg, epul, fhamy, fatyn, ashrah and izah at west plaza. i didn't went home straight and slept over at fatyn's which ended up with me not going to the interview toa payoh and to the IT fair at suntec city with ashrah and fatyn.

afterwards, we headed to town to meet saini. awesome time with fatyn, ashrah and saini.

met up with berg, nerd, epul, dan, nas, elmmy and fred at far east plaza. they had their dinner there whereas fatyn, saini and i went to lucky plaza rooftop.

awesome time ^^

<3>

saturday,13th march

2010-03-15T04:43:00.004+08:00

i was out with the boy on saturday, met him up at orchard mrt station around 0530 when we promised to meet at 0430. sorry babe, i was late <3

bumped into his friends and he talked to his friends for awhile.

afterwards, we headed to 313's LJS to have our super late lunch. thanks for the treat love.

bumped into my baby girls and his friends when we're on the way to far east plaza

to have a look around. we headed to cineleisure and chilled at around scape.

our day was full of walking around and just chilling. bumped into baby girls and hung out with them till around 1130. headed back to pasir ris with the boy and the girls.

the boy and i had an awesome spending time together at macdonalds and the beach <3

thanks for the breakfast deluxe meal love ^^

basi

2010-03-13T03:59:00.004+08:00

A B C

2010-03-07T18:03:00.003+08:00

pictures taken on friday; 5th march.

supposedly the intention of meeting shaa is to see her brother perform at esplanade outdoor theatre but end up, we got to know that they were performing the following day.

so the day started out with me and eeka to gulab building to apply for a job at mango. we were interviewed and if we were shortlisted for the job, we'll get a call this coming week.

hope i get the job! *prays hard*

afterwards, we headed to meet shaa at raffles city and i got to eat those KFC chicken i've been craving for! finally i got to go esplanade rooftop after such a long time. ^^

took tons of pictures and we headed to UOB macdonalds and sat by the river :)

got home by 1130pm thanks to eeka's boyfriend. i had fun eventhough i was super shagged ^^

more pictures from shaa's camera will be uploaded soon.

i won't talk about my saturday because i didn't have that much fun.

1 2 3

2010-03-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

these photos were taken last friday. i had fun last friday even though there were akward moments. i was out with eeka and faiz. we went to orchard to somerset in search of a job. firstly we tried accessorize and we were directed to ngee ann city for the interview but end up we didnt get the job because there's no call from them. _|_

then we headed to ocean paradise at paragon and damn, there were unneccesary questions and since eeka and I were too lazy to fill up, we just walked away with application forms and the board, lol. that was funny. afterwards, we headed to 313@somerset to have our late luch at LJS. afterwhich we proceed to eprit at 313 to ask for any vacancies but there wasn't. we gave up and headed to cathay to meet the rest while faiz went back home to play soccer apparently. eeka and I met up with them but ended up walking back to orchard because shaa wanted to have her ayam penyet at lucky plaza. it was very exhausting. so, it was only the 3 of us while the boys went somewhere else. walked around and sat down at taka. the boy came and we chilled for awhile before heading to far east plaza to meet kurt and the rest while eeka went back home.

this part was akward because they kept on disturbing me. the boy and I went on our separate ways because shaa went home with kurt. the boy and I chilled at taka. it was a great day and he sent me back home ^^. coincidentally we met up with the rest at mrt station.

once we reached pasir ris, we headed to downtown east to chill and we saw ain there.

so, ended up we hang out with ain for awhile. that was my friday.

i love it eventhough it was damn exhausting ^^

and my blog is dead. no one is reading it. HAHAHA :p

damn girl

2010-02-25T22:31:00.002+08:00

it was great spending time with the boy both on monday and wednesday.

on monday, he was super late by an hour but luckily i was with my babygirls and i couldn't get angry at him because he came all the way to pasir ris to meet me. we chilled with my friends all the way but we got to spend a bit of time alone at kfc to grab something to eat.

we talked about a lot of stuffs and oh my, the chicken flew at me! haha, the boy's face was damn hilarious when he realised that the chicken flew at me. fried chicken also can fly(Y).

afterwards, met up with our friends again and chilled. we went off when it was around 11pm. send him to the mrt station and i went to take the bus home but change of plans, he took the train back to pasir ris and i took the bus back to pasir ris interchange just because we thought that we didn't had enough time together. LOL. it was great spending alone time with him. we went to the beach and then to downtown east and then to a pondok near hai sing catholic.

yesterday, i met up with him again. he travelled all the way to pasir ris after his work ends which was at 11pm. we spend our time at the beach and i cooked him something because he was hungry. by the end of the day, i was so comfortable with him, i can't deny. now i am already missing him :(

2010-02-25T22:08:00.002+08:00

saturday's was shaa's 19th birthday. yay! i have a buddy! (:

actual plan was to go out with shaa and her bestfriends with their boyfriends but end up got a text from shaa that it's cancelled so i met up shaa with elmmy at orchard mrt station and we headed to far east because shaa's craving for the crispy chicken. bought an ice lemon tea big gulp and we headed to ion because elmmy wanted to meet azimah.

afterwards, we headed to heeren and cinelesure in search of elmmy's necklace and looking around for shaa's shoes. we headed to takashimaya next for shaa to withdraw some cash and i got a vanilla ice cream cone! shaa's treat! ^^ thanks shaa.

met up with the rest at far east plaza and headed to scape afterwards but i accompanied shaa to 313 for awhile for her present. i was suppose to meet the boy that night but he didnt reply any of my texts or calls. i was fucking moody that day but friends made me happy with their silly antics at cineleisure. i was in the train already, on the way home, when i've received a call from the boy. i didnt have the mood to talk to him. i got angry at him for a while but can't bear to after hearing his happy voice. haha, i am such a loser.

babi gila

2010-02-21T05:08:00.001+08:00

they're the best and of course, the rest of them too.

gig on friday was awesome. i love it.

damn, the boy know how the play his guitar reaaaal good (:

abc

2010-02-17T14:24:00.004+08:00

tuesday;

tuesday which was yesterday, i went out with fatyn, ashrah and zahryn to tampines.
we checked out the photos that sepet gave me in a disc at macdonalds and they accompanied me to eat at LJS. afterwards, we went to money changer to change malaysian ringgit to singapore dollars, pathetic please. lol. went around tampines to window shop and thought of searching for shaa's present at this shop but the shop was closed. nabei cibs. chilled at macs till 8 and we headed to ashrah's block to send her off. thought of going back home but ashrah asked us to accompany her to safra because her mum wanted to play pool. reached the destination but the pool area was fully booked so end up, we play bowling! ^^
i got a strikeeeeeeeeee! wheeeeeeeeeee :D
i swear ashrah is the best bowler ever! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
hi ashrah, heh! (:

friday; before i go terengganu

before i went to terengganu, i met up with my baby girls; ashrah, fatyn and ain.
firstly; i went to aljunied with ashrah for her job interview and i also applied for it but ashrah got the job while i didnt! sad please :(
after which, ashrah and i went to bugis to meet up with ain and fatyn but since they were late, we went around bugis, window shopping. when fatyn and ain reached, we headed to basement to get our crispy chicken. i swear it tasted way better than those at far east plaza! yummeh^^
basically we walked around bugis and took pictures. i swear that day was like toilet day. we went in and out the toilet quite a lot of times. i was tired of the toilet by then.
i went home with fatyn around 7 going to 8 pm while ashrah and ain stayed behind.
simple day out but i had fun with them as usual :D

terengganu and kl

2010-02-16T13:23:00.002+08:00

last day at kl.

masjid krystal.

my mum, 4th sister and my 1st sister. cute kan dorang? haha! :P

the view i got to see while eating. nicee! (:

saturday; first day at terengganu.

cousin and my youngest sister.

the trip was alright. went to terengganu and to kl on monday.

went out of singapore on friday night and came back on tuesday morning.

i will call it holiday for food because most of time was spent on eating and less shopping :P

gonglo HAHA!

2010-02-11T01:45:00.003+08:00

shaa + me = gonglo

legong + belo

hahaha so yah that explains why it's gonglo. i guess going out with her was the most funniest experience ever. i swear i laughed till tears came out. it was that bad. hahaha!

the story goes like this, we were from level b1 and we took an escalator up. we walked and walked and we took the escalator down again without realizing it. i guessed we were amazed by the highest escalator at ion plus we were too engrossed talking and i was engrossed in texting mr.unknown. basically we walked at level b1 again until i realised that we are back at the same level because i notice the same famous amos shop and that shaa eh, can still say until i point that same famous amos shop. legong sia she! and we had to take the escalator up again. we laughed at our stupidity basically. i will never forget this for sure. HAHAHAHA!

pictures!

2010-02-11T01:01:00.003+08:00

more pictures of my 19th birthday surprise from azimah's camera!

thanks azimah! (:

chupa chup! ^^

2010-02-11T00:17:00.002+08:00

i'm so shagged right now that i could sleep right now but i'm restraining myself not to sleep because i still find it too soon to sleep, lol. the lamp that sepet gave is not helping me either. it's making me more sleepy because the lamp helps you to relax your senses. it has this fragrance warmer like aromatherapy. woo~ steam woi. i appreciate the thoughts, sepet!

thanks for the birthday gift again! :D

tuesday, met up with my baby girls; ain, fatyn and ashrah at whitesand's mac. we hanged out there for a while and headed in to whitesands to window shop. bought some food and hang out behind ws' burger king. we shared alot about our life and planned for something effective for all of us to do. we need to carry out the plans soon darlings :D

it was nice spending time together, the four of us again.

wednesday; met up with faiz and we headed to orchard to meet shaa but shaa was late so we headed to lucky's plaza for our late lunch. faiz's treat! my birthday treat from him! thanks faiz :D

walked around wisma atria, i applied for forever 21. hope i get a call from them soon!

*pray hard* we went to takashimaya after that. checked out mango and fox and end up applied job for fox only. 313 to meet up with the rest. sepet pass me the birthday present he got me, thanks alot for it. i really love it. the guys went somewhere while shaa, faiz and i chilled out near somerset mrt station and headed to cineleisure afterwards with only shaa because faiz headed home -.-! i remember we were walking around cineleisure and we laughed so loud that people look at us. classic! haha :P

we went back wisma to get our nail polish from face shop. at last i got my red nail polish! :D

sat down in front of Ion and chilled out with Ash Bean for a while cos he was having his break.

next, to far east to meet the guys again. that was my day. i'm so shagged right now.

i think i'm going crazy. i missed my stop because i was engrossed texting mr.(unknown) and i nearly walked the long way because of the same thing. boy, you are making me crazy.

i was lost in our own world, i guessed. HAHAHA! :P

sweetest

2010-02-10T01:46:00.003+08:00

aww, fauzan. so sweet of you to blogged about me. we'll meet up soon kay? (:

this is the result of not sleeping fr a day. hugeeeee eyebags!

so happy! :D

now i know is a very ticklish person! LOL :P

best kenaa sabo. top, shoes all got dirty. boooo :(

on saturday, 6th february. i went out with eeka first then we went to highway of freedom first when we reached somerset. it was so windy, damn syiok until i wanna fall asleep plus i didn't get to sleep a wink that day anyways. i got bad news that ashrah didn't get to go out. i was damn sad and kept quiet for a while at highway of freedom. afterwards, met up with fred, fhamy, kurt and shaa in front of 313's forever 21. supposedly berg was suppose to be there too but i didn't know where he went to. shaa, eeka and I went to centrepoint, to withdraw cash and buy a big gulp. after that, headed to in front of 313's forever 21 to meet the guys again with an addition of dan.

terserempak with dilla! was fucking happy and blah blah blah, waited for azimah and elmmy.

headed to somewhere, and i was freaking pissed because i didn't know where we going

plus i was damn hungry! haha. then blah blah blah, my eyes were covered by dilla's eyes.

when i opened my eyes, first thing i saw was ashrah, sumpah aku happy gila and wanted to cry!

anyways, overall i had hell of fun! thanks for that day people! sayang korang! :D

february

2010-02-08T03:53:00.002+08:00

saturday, babygirls and the boys made a birthday surprise for me.

i shall elaborate more when i get the pictures.

february has been a darling to me. i am f*cking happy right now. i'm over the moon!

i can't put it in words how happy i am right now but i shall take it slow.

no hoping too much. february, please be a dear to me.

<3>

toodles.

hips!

2010-02-03T05:00:00.003+08:00

yes, i was bored again.

yesterday, met up with the boys; berg, nas and dinno at rc. that's all.
oh yah, i laughed a lot again. HAHA!
as i was bored yesterday's morning, i did a video on friendship. i'm sorry if i forgot to put any of your pictures with me,
there's too many of you but i love all of you people equally.
each one of you are my precious gift from God. Gosh, i'm so emotional nowadays.
i realised that with these kind of friends, i can live without having any lover even though i do miss having someone to love and love me in return.

in 4 hours' time, i am gonna get ready to meet eeka. we're gonna go job hunting again -.-
may everything goes well smoothly.

fresh!

2010-02-01T09:52:00.002+08:00

yesterday i slept at around 11pm and suddeny woke up around 4 am.

since then, i've been watching movies.

i've watched a total of 3 movies;

sydney white; i watched it because there's amanda bynes asmain actress and the main actor is cute! :D
Picture This; Ashley Tisdale was the main actress; favourite!
love wrecked; there's amanda bynes! ; favourite!

sorry that i am a bit crazy over amanda bynes.

damn it.

2010-02-01T07:37:00.003+08:00

friday; homecub.

saturday;

i got dressed around 6 in the afternoon but end up i went around 8 pus to meet eeka under my block first.
hanged out with her till 92 and i headed to tampines platform to meet shaiful.
we went to lau pa sat to meet the rest. thanks fhamy for the satay! :D
i ended up tonn-ing with them. first we went to merlion after eating at lau pa sat and then to somewhere near to art museum i think. we hanged out there until the rest went to play lan at dhoby ghaut whie fhamy, shaiful, berg and me stayed there till ard 3 pus. we headed to penin's 7 eleven to get water and then we headed to smu to chill. hahaha, funny thing happened there.

met the rest at cathay and then to plaza singapure to get some cup noodles t eat. went home with them by bus 65 and damn, it was fucking freezing. i swear i was laughing s hard in the bus because they made a lot of jokes.
and nas practically kept his promise to stay in the bus, pretending he was asleep and that the bus driver will come up and wake him up but it didn't happened. HAHA! sial ah kau nas.
i had fun with them as usual. love them to bits and pieces! <3

burpday!

2010-01-30T06:00:00.003+08:00

I've been sleeping late nowadays and that explains all these random webcam pictures. i was bored.S i'm sorry if i disturbed you, readers with these pictures. don't like it, you may leave this website and don't ever come back but i guess there are no more readers, lol. i was thinking of danny accompanying me through fbchat but he was busy with movies. last resort; webcam.

ily webcam! <3

anyways, i've been out every single day since wednesday.

wednesday; to TP as i blogged.

thursday; accompanied Raisha to ITE Macpherson for her drawing test for Digital Animation course with Shaiful. lepak-ed with Fred, Elmmy, Berg, Akam and Ash outside their school. wasted our time till 2 and we went off to take bus to Bugis because Take over had jamming session. i had my power nap under the bock waiting for time to passed and in the jamming room while Take over jammed. I was too tired because i didnt sleep the day before in fear i can't wake up. Sepet came and we went to 313@Somerset. Blah blah blah, ended up at Taka and i ended up sleeping for a while again. & omg! i was snoring. Khairani heard it, embarassing please. *blush*

Friday;

Happy Birthday to Fhamy! Finally you're legal 18! it has been nice knowing you. you're quite a funny person. i didn't expect that from you because you gave me the first impression that you're a quiet person. HAHA! :P

out to home club for the purpose to support Take over perform but I had no cash so i was outside, chilling with the rest that didn't went in. nothing interesting happened because i had no mood to talk. all i know that i took alot of pictures. Went home with Raisha, Berg, Nas and Sepet. Met up wiht Fatyn and Ain at Raffles Pace Mrt and went home. At last jumpa!

Kecoh ah shey.

today, i'm not sure of the plans.

-.0

2010-01-28T03:13:00.005+08:00

Boredom lead to these;

so i did went to TP yesterday with eeka. thanks eeka fr the accmpany! we headed to tampines interchange afterwards and had our late lunch at Long John Siver. finay i got to eat LJS!

yum yum! ^.^

anyways, after that, eeka and I headed to RC to meet elmmy first. that fella, macam paham,

say meet at 0630 and end up, reach at 7pm! bravo bro! HAHA! :P

berg and nas came after a while and then, epul came. i had a good laughter with them.

they are a few among the rest hardcore boys that i know of that i am comfortable to hang out with, without them, girls.

kay toodles, going to accompany raisha with epul later to ITE macpherson for her interview for some course. hope she gets the course!(:

hype

2010-01-27T03:10:00.002+08:00

i'm heading out at 1pm later to send my documents. die die, must send tomorrow, if not, they will not consider my application. afterwards, out to job hunt with eeka.

i'm not sure where we heading to for job hunt.

i just wanna something to this particular boy;

you can do whatever you want, i won't mind. i just wanna be someone that matters to you.

i miss you badly.

gone

2010-01-26T02:02:00.003+08:00

i have to ditched these feelings in me that's been bugging me since yesterday's night. i was so fucked up and down out of suddenly. i really miss him, i guess.

whatever it is, fatyn and ain was at my hse yesterday's morning. met up with raisha and berg at the hall near my block and headed to downtown east. chill and off to tampines. that's all.

met up with farah and afiq, don't ask me how was it. it's good to see them happy but i was hurt abit.

for i don't know what fuck sake i was upset about it!

fuck it with love. i've had it.

safe

2010-01-23T09:47:00.002+08:00

here's the only safest place that i can let everything out without letting that particular someone know because as from what i know, he doesn't read my blog anymore

but is updated with my facebook.

after so long of suppressing my emotions,

i've let everything out today. my anger, sadness, hurt and every emotion that exist in a human.

i've been restraining myself from crying since last year oct/nov but i guess this is the last straw because i broke down. fuck, i feel so weak and fucking useless because i cried.

i shouldn't have let you come in my life again, i should have just ignored you. i guess you still have a part of my heart and that's why i let you in my life again. i don't hate you, i just hate the fact that you said you're lazy to entertain me again after all that what we had. you're just like the other guys who leave me and didn't even bother to entertain me after everything i've done for them and after everything that we had.

you fucking hurt me when you say that you are lazy to entertain me

and saying that it was a good thing. i just don't get it. in the first place, don't bother to get close to me again if you'll get lazy to entertain me afterwards. you'll just end up hurting me again.

i just feel like punching or slapping your face, anything that will let out the hatred, anger and hurt that's in me.

and that fucking A, is fucking ignoring me right now. i just don't get it why are you ignoring me when i didn't do anything wrong. we don't even have casual meet ups anymore.

18th january was the last i heard from you. i fucking miss you, you fucking A-hole.

silent cries

2010-01-22T20:09:00.003+08:00

i wonder what are you up to; you made me think about the past i had with you and relive the old moments we had together back then but yet again, you left me hanging again.

i guess you're ignoring me again. thanks a lot dude.

tell what's on your mind. what's your motive in doing this?

i thought we had a great time.

defeated

2010-01-22T01:44:00.001+08:00

currently under the block with shaiful, waiting for alvin and the chipmunks: the squeakuel to load.

i'm fucking hungry right now. HAHA, kay bye.

happy

2010-01-21T04:50:00.003+08:00

19th january 2009;

i did went to the gig at blackhole to watch take over perform. they got better, i guess.

everyone was there and i was happy for that.

went home around 10 with elmmy, raisha, berg and shaiful. reached home around 12 midnight because went lepak for a while with rasul under his block. anyways, i've got the courage to text him and boy, i was a happy girl because he replied :)

20th january;

around 1am, headed out to his house and we hung out. it was nice to watch him play guitar and sing again. most of the time spent was on having conversations and joking around :P after that, i had a power nap before going out with his mum and brother for breakfast.

thanks cik for the treat, love you! <3

today's plan;

meet farhana noor to pass her bikini back. hoping to meet fatin supafly today, miss her a lot.

to you

i hope you don't ignore me again after this.

fuck you

2010-01-19T11:24:00.004+08:00

i am fucking bored right now and i miss hanging out with the boy who live just right

in front of my block. we live so near yet we never see each other anymore, so weird.

i miss you alot :(

pai says let fate decides whether i'll get him to treat me to oreo cheesecake.

-.- please, LOL.

girl

2010-01-19T06:54:00.002+08:00

"muka girl girl", every person that chatted with me yesterday, said. HAHA

yesterday's lepak session was cancelled because everyone was quiet plus i had to save my ezlink money for today's plan. maybe, going to blackhole to see take over perform later.

depends whether raisha is going or not. :P

laughter

2010-01-18T03:23:00.004+08:00

pictures above taken on thursday, 21st january.

yesterday was awesome for me because everyone was happy and laughing. it has been a long time since we had fun together, laughing at each other jokes. yesterday was worth it <3

i got to taste waffle hotdog, thanks to ain (:

too bad fatyn couldn't join us.

saturday was not awesome because my girlfriends wasn't with me. i spent my saturday with the boys; going to cityhall, dhoby ghaut and lastly to somerset. ff meet me at scape and boy,

thanks for the cadbury chocolate! you're a man of your word, lol (:

took the last train home and went to downtown east to hang out till 2am,

headed home afterwards with fatyn n zahryn. thanks shaiful for the taxi fare :D

berg called me up and i was out at around 3 to go to dinno's house to chill out. we cycled to dinno's place, hahaha i pity berg because he had to cycled up a hill with me at the back. LOL.

hang out till 9 and headed home :)

littlest things you say to me, i will get happy over it.

how ridiculous i am, lol.

good

2010-01-17T03:14:00.003+08:00

you can be annoying at times, but i am glad i have a younger sister.

happy 16th birthday to you! <3

hope you get better grades than me for your 'o' levels (:

awake

2010-01-14T12:09:00.002+08:00

show off, lol.

pictures from my so called brother's wedding.

haizad from 2x5 dol was there, he sand (Y) :D

emotional

2010-01-14T01:56:00.004+08:00

i miss every single one of them in the pictures above.

i miss hanging out with them either at ws' macs, dte and rasa 21 which supposedly we were suppose to drink teh tarik together but end up, i was the one one who drank the teh tarik while the rest ordered other drinks, haha. i miss thonn-ing with them, i miss going out to anywhere of singapore with them, i miss making random crazy videos of ourselves(the girls), i miss having sleepover at mariah's house with the girls, i miss taking pictures with them, i miss going to gigs to support our friends, i miss having fun with you guys, i miss everyone being happy together.

i miss everything! :(

zombie

2010-01-13T02:34:00.004+08:00

i've been awake since monday, january 11th, 7pm

and i still don't feel like sleeping. LOL.

i'm killing myself by doing this to myself, haha :P

btw, mariah asked me to blogged about that. so, pardon me :D

anyways, i went out with heidi and fatin supafly to town yesterday.

accompanied heidi to send her documents to robinson's office at raffles city.

somebody is working at expo for 2 weeks! you're such a workaholic.

keep studying alright! :D

right after that, we went to orchard and we talked about 3K. Lol, typical singaporeans.

upon reaching orchard, we had our late lunch at cahaya. thanks fatin for the treat,

love you tons! <3

basically, heidi went off cause she had problems to attend to and it was left with me and fatin

to meet shaiful izan. we roamed around ion orchard, wisma atria and 313 somerset just to shop.

pity epul because we took hours shopping. thanks for tolerating us! LOL.

fatin is not fatin supafly, she is fatin supaLEGONG cos she almost took the wrong escalator.

we were suppose to go up and she wanted to take the one that goes down, haha funny girl!

after shopping, we chilled and waited for nas & zainol to come.

yada yada, chilled, happy happy and took the last train home

i didn't get any clothes but i got shoes from neu look at super cheap price, 2 necklaces from diva and 2 nail polish; electric blue and yellow <3

i'm such a happy kid but i will be much more happy if i could just get a top that i like.

no pictures taken :(

failed jobhunting

2010-01-12T03:14:00.002+08:00

aching

2010-01-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

i dreamt about something sad because i felt like crying and my heart was in pain when i woke up.

BUT the thing is, i can't recall what's the dream about. damn it.

anyways, went to town to find a job apparently but i woke up late and so eeka and i went town to eat chippy and walk around. it feels great to spend time with her alone (:

i didn't get my fried mars bars from chippy but i've got my sushi.

yumyum! :D

beauty sleep

2010-01-07T01:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday's plans were cancelled because eeka got a sudden attack of asthma.

instead it is brought forward to today. i hope that the job hunt will be today because its been delayed since monday (Y) lol.

i spent my day at home, sleeping like a pig but still, i am tired.

i dreamt of a lot of people, its funny.

about A, the girls and the boys that i hung out with.

i can't recall what the dream was about but i know it's funny. LOL.

misses

2010-01-06T03:54:00.002+08:00

i miss the girls and the boys.

supposedly gonna meet somebody today but that somebody has a project to deal with it, lol.

you owe me dude. better make it up to me soon!

& i am getting impatient for my cadbury chocolate! :D

going out later to meet eeka and ryemie(maybe?) to find a job.

i am such a failure, living a live as a freeloader. i wanna find a job so that i can support myself till when april starts because i'm gonna school again! yay :D

can i get fat faster? i want my royal jelly! :(

& somebody still owe me an oreo cheesecake and chocolates :P

pissed off

2010-01-05T07:53:00.003+08:00

this is the first time i felt so hurt and disappointed by my girlfriend.

too hurt and disappointed that i am fucking pissed off with her attitude.

i've been staying at home since countdown. (Y)

the only time i went out was at night to hang out around my neighborhood area.

aku m-i-a pun cantik.

craves

2010-01-04T04:13:00.004+08:00

i am craving for every single food item that you see in the picture above plus campbell soup, kinder bueno bar and chippys cheese sausage and whipped potato!

yummy! :P

*drools*

someone, treat me to those please? lol.

good girl

2010-01-03T04:33:00.002+08:00

stay home saturday (Y)

i'm lovin it! (:

i got to eat hotcakes and hashbrown from macdonalds for my breakfast! at last :D

pyscho-ed my mum to order it for me, thanks mum.

the laptop is my companion today. i went out to hang out around my house area for a while,

that's my saturday. awesome isn't it? love it :)

toodles people.

(Y)

2010-01-02T19:03:00.003+08:00

misses

2010-01-02T04:10:00.000+08:00

i miss ska and reggae gigs.

new year shopping

2010-01-02T02:07:00.003+08:00

wednesday, went to accompany eeka for her new year's shopping with ayu.

went to 313 and then to cineleisure. she got her dress from cotton on and bangle from diva.

chilled outside cineleisure with hairi, iszwan, pai, sasa and some others.

went off around 1030(?) and chilled at whitesand's macdonalds with eeka and ayu.

then, home sweet home :)

i am keeping my promise not to bother your life.

am i doing a good job of it?

are you satisfied now?

twenty ten

2010-01-01T23:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

HAPPY 2010! (:

new year celebration was alright, got to hang out with yus, kart, kas and

dinni after a long of not seeing them. i am glad that the guys plus azimah and khairani entertained me yesterday. everyone wasted at UOB, lol.

chilled at SMU in the end and reached home at 8.

i'm disappointed with my girls except for ashrah.

i can't say anything anymore, i'm tired of everything.

ni semua dah biasa lah kan.

dusty

2009-12-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

zombie menyibuk kat belakang :P

ain's birthday (:

worn out, lol.

26th december

dead

2009-12-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

i am so gonna miss raisha :(

no plans for countdown, fuck it.

awesome

2009-12-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

i've got my original cheese sausage with mashed potato at chippy yesterday. yummy! (:

yesterday night was cocked up at first but it was alright after that. alright but not awesome.

the only awesome part was when i danced with this guy near to the deejay station

but i guess he can't remember a thing. lol.

never mind, at least i had fun dancing with him (:

i felt happy yesterday somehow because it feels like we are close again but i know its for that night only. you know why? he wasn't in a right state of mind. i miss him all of a sudden.

nothing's gonna bring me down again not even you.

clueless

2009-12-25T13:16:00.003+08:00

i'll shoot myself to death if that pleases you.

i am always the cruel one for you, always making you angry and hurt.

that's what you think of me, no matter what i did for you.

you should know that i want you to be happy, no matter what.

if not seeing me anymore, makes you happy. okay, i'll grant your wish.

may you be happy always. take care, friend.

you know, i am still here, no matter what. just a call or a text away.

even though it's tearing me apart inside, i'll oblige to your wish.

anyways, yesterday's work with raisha was awesome at hilton hotel.

all i need to handle was to play the rolette game for an hour and i got 50 bucks! (:

now, all is left of my money is 12 bucks because i bought a top from pull and bear, mcspicy meal and a pack of ciggs. stayed with berg and raisha at berg's work place at orchard hotel shopping arcade till 12 midnight. countdown to christmas with them and that cute boy that works with berg. too bad, he's 16. omg, why is it that i am always attracted to a younger guy?

lol, stop it sey perangai. -.-

dad fetched me from orchard hotel shopping arcade and home sweet home!

make me happy people, i am trying to make myself happy right now! :)

fuck your anal

2009-12-25T02:15:00.003+08:00

kalau kau nak marah aku stakat apa aku blog pasal kau, stop it eh.
yang kau blog pasal aku lagi memalukan aku okay.
lagi menjatuhkan maruah aku. stop it sia perangai kau.
perkara kecil, kau nak besar besarkan. baik ah kau (Y)
all the best to you dude. you are just a coward running away from everything
and finding excuses so that you can run away.
kalau kau nak marah dengan aku lagi pasal aku blog perkara ni, gasak kau. kau sensitive benar ah.

kalau aku boleh maafkan kau walaupun kau banyak buat benda sial kat aku, jatuhkan maruah aku lagi rabak,
apasal kau tak boleh sama? you are just being unfair, as always.
find me when you need me, idk what to do to please you anymore.

shhh

2009-12-24T02:37:00.003+08:00

a secret between me and A.

i will keep my promise to you so you better know what you are suppose to do.

(y)

2009-12-23T17:52:00.001+08:00

its interesting how a korean drama can make you cry even though you have watched the same drama series countless times.

one two three

2009-12-23T15:23:00.003+08:00

let me recall what i've been doing these past few days.

saturday went to cityhall and then to sentosa.

overall, it was alright, not that bad.

the passion, the connection, i could feel it when i danced with this unknown guy.

i wanna know who that person is ;D

went back ain's house and slept there till monday.

on monday, headed to fatyn's house and we went to town because supposedly, fatyn wanna buy her birks but there was no stock for her size, lol!

end up, met up with shaiful, fred, kurt, jon, imran, ain and mus at cineleisure (:

thanks zahryn and fatyn for food and the taxi ride.

yesterday had a lepak session at downtown east with dinno, fatyn, ain, shaiful, berg, raisha, imran and zahryn. the funny, random dinno is back!

he made us laugh our ass out at downtown east, i swear my stomach was gonna burst.

LOL! didnt regret lepak-ing with them even though didnt have enough sleep.

afterwards, met up with afiq around our house area (:

i know i immediately knocked out when i laid my body on the bed.

hahahaha.

later gonna go town with baby girls, maybe tia tagging along (:

hola

2009-12-22T07:51:00.003+08:00

i've been sneezing since i was at whitesand's macdonalds with zahryn, mus, ain and fatyn which was around 12.

updates soon but i think i won't be updating anything because my life is a bore

unlike that somebody who says that he has everything. oops, sorry that i have only my baby girls and boy friends to depend on. lol, the way you said it seems that you are

becoming more arrogant than ever.

tak perlu nak cakap kau ada segala-galanya eh. _|_

you wanna make me jealous? lol, try harder.

you are very funny, my dear friend. don't be too proud that you have everything.

you might not know what happens sooner or later.

pretend

2009-12-18T05:40:00.003+08:00

i've become more skinny than ever. see that picture above? i look more berisi than now plus i can't wear that jeans anymore because it's baggy on me now :(

i wanna gain weighttttttt!

sidetracked/

i am a happy girl now because you just gave me 2 hours of your time to spend with you today.

see, i won't complain much if you just give me a little bit of your time to me because all i need is for someone to give me concern and make me happy by the end of the day and,

you've been giving me that since we broke up.

i can't depend much on my baby girls because i don't want to burden them with the same old problems that i can't seem to get over with.

there's a lot i wanna say to you just now but i don't wanna say it. i rather keep it inside.

no one shall know anything about it.

something that i hate about myself is that i can pretend i am alright for a while but

sooner or later, i will practically breakdown.

this whole week that i am home, i completely breakdown and cried when i was alone in my room because A was not there for me and i felt that i am losing him as a friend.

besides that, of course there's other reasons that i shall not list.

in fact, when i was typing some of my previous entries, i was crying, pouring out my heart to my online diary. say that i am emo and shits but this is what i am feeling right now.

i've been feeling lost since 8 months ago. (y)

going insane

2009-12-17T17:55:00.004+08:00

waking up to see that mug you gave placed in front of my bed, waking up to a video of you in it and waking up to the scrapbook you gave me. plus, i've been having nightmares of you.

tell me how am i suppose to not miss you more? i know you've been busy but can't you even reply to my texts? i am fucking worried about you and have been missing you a lot lately.

i admit i am a mess without your support and care.

:'(

sexy bitch

2009-12-16T04:43:00.002+08:00

sorry lah korang aku nye camera skills tak bagus.

bukan camera skills tak bagus, mariah nye camera yang tak bagus! :P

town-ed with ain, mariah, faris, yaqin, akiff, faisal and afiq on monday.

thanks a lot for making me feel invisible. you and D are the same, making me invisible.

but thank god, you hugged me by the end of the day :)

yesterday, went to town again with ain and tasha. thanks tasha for everything, for the ride home, the food and supply of C :)

i was happy;

- i got to meet raisha, berg, epul, kurt, nerd, dan and some others.

- girls' talk

- got a hug from pai, as he promised.

- got to meet the faris, yaqin, lufee and others.

last part of the day tak perlu, bumped into afiq, farah and her friends.

i just wish that you will go home every day like you used to even though its late and not home only for a few days. i've changed my habit of not going home and now, its your turn becoming like that. i hope your habit of drinking will lessen, i don't want you to die early even though sometimes, i wish you will perish from Earth. I care for you like how you care for me and that's why i'm advising you like how you advised me when i didn't go home that often anymore.

for you, A. i just wished for good things for friends that are precious to me.

you said friends come and go but i don't want you to be one of them.

friendship

2009-12-14T01:02:00.004+08:00

above pictures are my favorites :)

GIANT with babies. SPONSORED BY GIANT! lol.

Friday was awesome even though i lost the mood but at least i was happy

because of my baby girls. Baby girls; fatyn, eeka, ain and mariah!

Saturday went to town late; reached town around 9 and went home last train.

lepak-ed with faris, lufee,fye and mus because we bumped into them at cineleisure.

we got ourselves a cheap thrill at cineleisure, tasha bapok ;)

i loikeeeee! lol.

wanted to ton with ain,fye,mus,eeka,fatyn and zahryn but everyone was tired and ain had to go home so me and eeka went to DTE to meet nas, nerd and imran.

went home ard 4 plus, thanks to eeka's friend for sending me and eeka home :)

for certain people, love is first priority (Y).

i will stay in my own world with no one noticing me.

i have the urge to disappear from everyone to cure my broken heart.

i am missing you badly, D but i don't have the courage to face you.

updates

2009-12-09T23:04:00.004+08:00

7th december;

sleepover at mariah's house with eeka,fayn and of course mariah!

play Hamburger, Heart attack and babi level. I was the winner of babi level! :(

now there's videos of me doing crap at fb. PAISEY DEY! hahaha.

but the sleepover was fun! :)

on the 6th was awesome! Qadri the best bartender! ;)

4th december/5th december

epul's birthday celebration at istana park and 3 am gig at beats :D

i bought myself 2 pair of earrings and snow wash shorts at cotton on.

total spent only 24 bucks! happy kid!

ILML

2009-12-08T01:15:00.004+08:00

I LOVE MY LIFE! :D

with my baby girls and guy friends there for me.

to that dear friend, it's okay if u can't be there for me even as a friend.

i guess i dont deserve to be your friend :)

to you jerks, be happy with your life. i can't be bothered anymore.

die if you want to, i hate you.

goodbye.

you said i am jealous of you that you are having much more fun than me.

WELL FUCKER, I AM HAVING MUCH MORE FUN THAN YOU, FUCKING ASS.

i have my own ways to have fun, better ways. not like you, fucking drunkard.

anyways, im with my babygirls at mariah's house. SLEEPOVER!!! :D

too bad ain and raisha can't be here :(

horoscope

2009-12-04T05:30:00.000+08:00

romance doesn't have to be a serious endeavor. Flirtation can do you a world of good. It'll remind you of how attractive you are, and it'll demonstrate just how many fish there are in the sea.

i like today's horoscope for aquarius ;)

strength

2009-12-04T04:47:00.007+08:00

at last i get to meet eeka! miss you alot babe! meet again soon! :)

Gotta find your inner strength

If you can't then just throw life away

Gotta learn to rely on you

Beauty, strength and wisdom, too

You're beautiful inside and out

Lead a great life without a doubt

Don't need a man to make things fair

'Cuz more than likely he won't be there

Listen girl, gotta know it's true

In the end all you've got is you

hilary duff- strength

yeaaah, i need strength so i can overcome anything but where do i find that strength?

i need that strength.

whatever lah, i wanna partaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! :)

i wanna countdown with my beloved people! get drunk and wasted.

oh, danced till your legs turn jelly girls! :D

can't wait for that. yay!

i don't know what overcome me just now but my heart was in too much pain and i felt sick in the stomach to the fact that

i vomitted.

and at last, i get to talk to kurt :)

piercings

2009-12-03T16:47:00.005+08:00

wanna do like this? it looks nice. ;)

since i can't do tattoos, i shall do piercings.

i wanna re-pierce my nose and ears.

i've been wanting to get naval piercing but i am not sure when to get it.

girls! do it with me :P

i feel like piercing my tongue too.

haha, kecoh. i don't want too much piercings though.

sidetracked/

i miss your hugs and talking to you! :(

what did i do to deserve silent treatment from you? i just want us to be good friends.

me love cullen

2009-12-03T15:50:00.003+08:00

my hair is one side longer than the other (y)

random, haha.

i must post a happy entry because yem complain that my entries are either sad or angry.

for you eh yemmy boy! lol.

i am happy that i have friends that accept my flaws and history. they don't judge me just because of my history and that's why i love them. i still love my old friends but they've been missing in action. i miss my old friends but i am happy where i am now. of course i'll be more happy to meet my old friends! rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ~

anyways, i have a lot of things to be happy about, movie marathon with the girls at mariah's or ain's house this coming monday, karaoke with anyone who wanna tag along on wednesday and and, arvin treating me to new moon movie either this friday or sunday. yay! :)

i love having plans :D

believe

2009-12-03T04:43:00.006+08:00

listening to the song that you played on your guitar when we hung out together as i looked out the window and looking at the pictures of you and, the only picture of us make me realised that my feelings for you have never changed. i am still stuck in the same situation. i am missing you. still reliving the moments we had together even though it was for a short while. i feel so useless because i am still feeling the same way for you when i should not be and i feel so stupid that i am still waiting for you.

Just when I thought our love was here to stay
Just when I thought you'll never ever go away
You said it's time for you to go
But I'm not sure I really know
Why you are leaving

And when we finally say our last goodbye
I'll never make it hard for you
You won't even see me cry
And though there's tears inside of me
I'm gonna let your heart go free
Before you leave
There's just one thing
That I want you to know

I still believe in loving you
Inspite of all the hurts that I'm going through
Even if again and again you'd break my heart
One thing would never change
I still believe in loving you

If you would tell me that you'll be alright
I'll never let you see me blue
But I'll keep our love alive
And though I'm feeling incomplete
I guess that this is what you need
Before you leave
There's just one thing
That I want you to know

I still believe in loving you
Inspite of all the hurts that I'm going through
Even if again and again you'd break my heart
One thing would never change
I still believe in loving you

a song for you by Sarah Geronimo titled i Still Believe in Loving You

i still hope that the wish i made upon the shooting star will come true.

i still remember you asking what was the wish i've made when i saw the shooting star when we were at the beach some time ago.

too high

2009-12-03T04:06:00.005+08:00

i love it how we are close to each other now.

i've been enjoying too much that i can't remember what i've been doing last week and past few days but i know i enjoyed myself to the core. i remember one thing, i slept over fatyn's house with raisha for 3 days straight and i felt like we, girls own the house because fatyn's parents are always out when we wake up. fun isn't it? dapat feeling feeling dah ada rumah sendiri. LOL.

i've been enjoying too much to the extent that i don't think about my problems anymore.

now, i am back to square one. i need to get out from this mindset that i miss him and yearning for him. fuck it, can somebody just say it to my face that i am over him! i am, right?

idk, i am so confused.

i need that somebody to be there for me right now like he promised to do so.

side tracked/

" NAK PICITTTTTTT!", Ain screams like a mad girl.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. *inside joke*

guys _|_

2009-11-27T22:08:00.004+08:00

1st;

i hate it when guys make their promise to us, girls but end up never keep to their promises.

you said that you will always be there for me when i need you

but where are you? i rarely see you nowadays and plus whenever we meet, there's no communication. i knew it that you can't keep your promise and that's why i was so doubtful when you made your promise to me at the beach.

i bet you forgot already.

2nd;

i am nothing but only grains of sand that are easily blown away. that's why none of the guys i've been with or had something on with wants to keep the memories of us.

you said you won't delete your previous entries about us and what do i found? only pathetic 3 entries in your fucking blog. thanks a lot. thanks for cheating my feelings and playing around with my heart. fuck you.

these involves 2 different person.

2009-11-27T21:47:00.003+08:00

Lonesome stranger

With a crowd around you

I see who you are

You joke, they laugh

Til the show is over

Then you fall so hard

If you're needing

A soul-to-soul connection

I'll run to your side

When you're lost in the dark

When you're out in the cold

When you're looking for something that resembles your soul

When the wind blows your house of cards

I'll be a home to your homeless heart

Open close me

Leave your secrets with me

I can ease your pain

And my arms will be

Just like walls around you

Come in from the rain

If you're running

In the wrong direction

I will lead you back

Broken
Shattered like a mirror
In a million pieces
Sooner or later
You've got to find
Something someone
To find you and save you

When you're looking for something that resembles your soul
When the wind blows your house of cards
I'll be a home to your homeless heart

this is dedicated to that special someone even though he thinks that he is not special to me.

all i wanted to do for you is to be a home to your homeless heart.

tinky winky

2009-11-27T19:30:00.003+08:00

wednesday and thursdays was spent at fatyn's house. (Y)

wednesday night, raisha came and we had a sleep over. cook maggi goreng for the three of us and we added extra ingredients to it such as italian herbs and now, we have a name for it. its called as mee gorengano. its along that line, lol. thursday, woke up when ain came. i was so happy to see her that i woke up. laptop, tv, chitty chat with the girls and then berg and shaiful came.

played blind mice in the dark at fatyn's room. a lot funny things happened. LOL.

memories eh memories. when her parents came home, we ordered macD,

thanks to fatyn's mum! :D sarah came over then chitty chat with the girls, crap, keep on 'tripping' and ghost stories. i swear i was scared to go home. luckily, sarah sent me till the lift. thanks babe!

today s hari raya haji and i onlygot like 9 bucks! pathetic. lol.

tmrw working with fatyn at keppel club.

yaaaaaaaaaaaaay! :D

justin is so yumyum!

2009-11-26T21:59:00.003+08:00

JUSTIN BIEBER! CAN I HAVE HIM AS MY BOYFRIEND?
omg, he has the whole package that every girl wants! i want a boyfriend like him.
a guy who is able to sing and dance for me. actually i've found one that is so like justin bieber; cute, sweet and he's able to sing and dance but
he's still stuck in his old memories. *sad face*

whatever, its not fated anyways.

dont run from me

2009-11-25T22:12:00.003+08:00

as the bell rangs, i remember that yesterday, afiq gave me a dollar to buy an ice cream from the apek. lol, thanks dude! i forgot to thank you.
it's sweet of you, i know you're trying to save up money but you give me a dollar to pay for the ice cream that i wanted badly. thanks! sayang kau banyak.

a dollar makes a difference :D

enjoy life, ma'fuckers!

2009-11-25T02:50:00.000+08:00

dont be sad, my friend.

the pain inside you must be so hurtful that it is affecting you.

your friends are all here for you, especially me.

cheer up, my dearest friend.

i hope you're reading this.

D

2009-11-25T02:40:00.000+08:00

I need you and I miss you and

I want you and I love you because

I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you
You were my everything and I really miss you.

- Aviation

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning around in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched

Just when I think about someone new

I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around and forget, forget about you
Forget about me and you

The way we laughed, the way we kissed
I never thought that I would miss
All the things I used to complain about you

I'm just glad to see an end
But tell me why I feel so alone without you?

- Jojo

these lyrics are meaningful for me because it is expressing the feelings that i

have for a certain someone currently.

A

2009-11-25T02:22:00.009+08:00

sunday, slept over fatyn's house with raisha. on monday, out with raisha and fatyn to dinno's house because of some things. then back home. met up with afiq to matau rokok, chill with him and then met up with with imran and fatyn at the hall. to dinno's house again, thought of drinking but my throat hurts.

went back at 0520am with ash,fatyn and imran.

woke up at 5 on tuesday, afiq called me up and met up at the hall, played the laptop with him and chitty chat. cheer up, dude. you're still the best even though you suck. lol.

what afiq typed in his blog is damn meaningful and true.

i agree. if there's anyone out there who are scared to fall in love, you should read his entry at his blog. it will open up your heart, i hope so.

its amazing how afiq and i turned from lovers, enemies and to best friends now.

i can't deny that i treasure afiq very much even though he treat me like shit.

2009-11-25T02:09:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to you, Azimah! :)

Hope you will be happy today and enjoy your day babe!

legend

2009-11-25T01:28:00.003+08:00

wednesday

thursday

friday

saturday

i love last week. spent my days with my lovelies and i was happy with no worries on my mind.

wednesday, went to eunos for a job interview which sucks, met up with faiz there and went to ws's mac. the rest came afterwards and it was damn kecohrable. mariah was there too. i was laughing my ass of at mariah's jokes. 'orang gila main cup' = (Y).

slept over fatyn's house and oh, sepet came to singapore.

thursday, mariah came over fatyn's place and we went to meet shaiful and berg at dte's eating place. afterwards, went to behind burger king to smoke and chill. played a game of truth with them and we know each other more better now. we were otw home when we coincidentally met up with dan,nerd,sepet and nas.

friday, went to raisha's house to fetch her because berg ask me to work with her at hyatt hotel. i got 30 bucks and i only work for an hour. fucking awesome right? lol.

met up with berg,fatyn, ain and shaiful, have our dinner at cineleisure's kfc and hang out with the rest at taka. then home sweeet homeee! :)

saturday, was to dinno house to fly up high in the sky with fatyn,berg,dinno and raisha.

went back to fatyn's house and went to the house party to meet the rest at 0330am.

afiq was being insane that day. i was his beer delivery girl. lol.

spent the rest of time outside burger king and yeah, i was a happy girl.

no worries, no nothing. i was smiling and laughing all day long this week :D

urgh

2009-11-20T04:10:00.002+08:00

i hate myself for forgetting to forget you. eh salah, i mean forgetting to text yemmy back. i could have gotten myself a job at cotton on with him! I WANNA KILL MYSELF!

FUCK FUCK FUCK! FUCK LIFE!

i love myself

2009-11-20T03:46:00.005+08:00

i wanna kill myself for not being able to fall asleep. lol.

i feel so sick, my chest is in pain, i feel like inserting something inside my throat so that i can scratch it. i am so lethargic, idk what to do. i wanna eat mcspicy, i wanna go dangdut, i wanna die a silent death, i wanna panic in wonderland, i wanna stuff my mouth full of sweets and chocolates till i choke to death, i wanna punch an invisible wall, i wanna be cyclop like dinno ramon, i wanna be cool like gwen stefani who sings 'cool', i wanna joget till i drop, i wanna move,shake and drop at countdown, i wanna enjoy so i can forget everything that are killing me inside, i wanna get rid of my feelings for you so i can be friends with you, i wanna be close to you again so i can see the old you again, i wanna fuck love and make peace, i wanna jump on a trampoline, i wanna go up to heaven so i can boogy dance there and i am fucking bored right now. that's why im typing crap right now.

kay bye, i hate you, i love myself. toodles amigos!

AIN IS BACK i think! lol.

raudha go and die :)

bella

2009-11-19T15:59:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to my niece, the girl in pink, nur isabella binte mohd norhaizat!

she has turned 7! omg, i am so old already :(

-.-

2009-11-18T01:19:00.003+08:00

omg, i look so different can? i look like a minah. LOL.

i wanna post old pictures of kurt but better not.

later, mati aku kena sembelih.

i'll try

2009-11-18T01:09:00.003+08:00

don't fret, i'll try my hardest to lose all these feelings because i don't wanna lose our friendship.

you're a great friend, that i can't deny.

i treasure friendships more than love.

(Y)

i look so good without you

2009-11-17T03:05:00.004+08:00

i need to ignore it, must not care about it and don't be bothered about anything that i've heard and what he's been saying. i think that is an easy task to accomplish because i and you have nothing in relation anymore. we're drifting apart and it hurts me but i shall not be bothered about it.

i don't wanna be a one man's woman anymore because it is less thrilling for guys.

happy

2009-11-17T01:48:00.002+08:00

dorang sweet please, but i am sweeter because i edit this picture for them! :)

13th november, the birthday girl! so cute :)

just updating some old pictures that was taken on friday, the 13th.

yesterday, went to meet aepul and ain at ws interchange with fatyn, took my bag and then off to changi airport terminal to have our tea break and waited for ain's flight.

i am guessing that ain has reach Bali safely. Miss you syafawani! come back safely, love you :)

after sending her off, the three of us, went to elias mall to eat prata! at last i got to eat what i've been craving. berg came halfway through. i was back home before 10, i am such a good girl :D

Happy by Leona Lewis

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

i am in love with this song.

smile

2009-11-16T03:57:00.003+08:00

whenever you smile to anyone around you, not necessarily me, i can't help it

but fall in love with you more.

ewww, i sound like a pyscho. haha, whatever to the sentence above.

i am just expressing my feelings in my own blog.

i can't stay mad at you for long because your smile will always makes me melt.

cliche? but it is true.

Te quiero desde que yo le dije tan.

iloveyou

2009-11-16T01:10:00.004+08:00

saturday; i didnt go to work and i am quitting starbucks.

lol. i dont bother to work anymore. im scared that i am not up to it to work at sbrc.

the pace is too fast and stressful. guess i cant handle pressure.

met up with berg instead and we headed to dinno's place. catch up on my sleep there. idk what i did there until ain and her sister came. took some silly pictures, lol and wasted my early morning at dinno's place. went back halfway because i felt i am bothering their time. didnt met up with eeka because i was too tired. sorry babe.

sunday,

slept all the way till 7pm, eat, watch tv and chitty chat with my family. miss the times.

now, i feel like sitting at home with family only.

around 1130 met up with afiq under the block to play the laptop, catch up on things.

i can't deny that afiq's presence still comfort me when i am too stressed up with life. (Y)

now i am back! :)

to ain syafawani; have a safe trip to bali babe! bring back some souveniers! :)

*tak tahu malu*

2009-11-15T04:12:00.003+08:00

i can't be bothered with life. i am tired of being there and feeling left out.

i am gonna rot at home from now on. you know and i know that i am not needed there.

_|_

fuck love, ftw!

2009-11-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

sorry eeka if your birthday celebration sucks.i thought it won't be that way but shits happened halfway, make my mood go down for a while. luckily i have friends like berg,raisha, fatyn and eeka to entertain my craps so i won't feel shitty. i am so glad that you are happy just now.

wish you all the best, i won't interfere in your life anymore. sick of being hurt again and again.

that's why i am still scared to be in a relationship but i can't deny that i still have to courage to fall in love again and again because love is a wonderful experience but to be in relationship, it is scary because it needs commitment and the percentage of getting hurt is higher. bet you are having with her right now somewhere in pasir ris. (Y)

have fun, boy. be happy. i know you are happy when you are with her.

i like it that you are happy :)

anyways, i paitao-ed work today and i have to go work later at 10am. baik ah shey.

today suck, stupid friday the 13th. a lot of shits happened and idk what to do.

i, myself is fucked up. so babies, lets ftw! :)

idk what else to say

2009-11-13T01:34:00.002+08:00

gambar legend. lol.

11th november, worked from 1o am till 0430 pm. did blended beverage, many recipes to remember but roughly, i know how to do it and i am comfortable to interact wth customers after doing sampling :)
after work, went to bugis to meet the rest of them with fatyn and ain.
back to cityhall, nabei. slacked at marina sq and back to fatyn's house. slept over her house and her mum freaks me out for staying in a position till the next day. lol. at night, met berg and we chilled kodok with rasool, fahmi,akiff and wardah.
at last dapat jumpe! muka happy! :)

kay, i need to sleep! working later at 9 am, cb fuck.
till 4pm sia! kanina. lol, too much vulgarities.
im so tired right now that i cant be bothered but i still miss you.
ass.

eeka's birthday today. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! Sorry if i cant do much for your bday cos i am fucking broke.
so sorry! :(

lalalalala

2009-11-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

first day of work is alright, i guess. i am still shy to talk to my partners. lol, but i think by the end of the day, i loosen up a bit to them. tomorrow's plan;

- work from 10am to 4pm

- meet berg and the rest after work maybe

kalau tak, aku balik sudah. Lol, i am now under the block with A, playing the laptop.

i still can't be a bitch to him -.-

met ain syafawani a.k.a Miss Legong at west plaza after work instead of going tamp to meet berg and shaiful. too lazy to go to tamp. Lol, i wanna watch Take Over jamming again but too bad, i've work tomorrow, nabei. chatting with dan's mum on tuesday's morning was superb and her advise really soothe my heart. plus his mum thought i merajuk because i never come to their house for a long time. haha.

eeka's birthday is on friday and idk what to do for her plus she still havent update me whether she is available on that day. i, myself is unsure whether i am available.

my schedule is not yet confirmed. alright babies, goodnight! :)

i miss him lah cb. i wanna hug him tight but i know i will surely be scared to do so.

lol, just forget it.

bored to the core

2009-11-10T03:12:00.003+08:00

kawan kawan, boleh kami keluar sama sama ke pantai, go cycling, have a little picnic and have some fun under the sun? i want to have some quality time with everyone of you.

okay, i am fucking bored right. i can't sleep because of some stupid coffee that drank. lol, blame it on coffee when i am at fault.

hellohellooo

2009-11-10T01:43:00.001+08:00

FUCK!

I WANT MY LONG HAIR BACK PLEASE! :(

i am so bored right now.

imyihy

2009-11-10T00:35:00.002+08:00

i am starting work tomorrow, my dearest friends, please hop in or chill out at raffles city's starbucks so that i won't be bored working there tomorrow but please don't be a pain in the ass. LOL. i'll just go with the flow. no point getting upset or angry. this is life. i can't do much about it.

maybe, i need to change my attitude to an egoistic bitch so that people wont dare talk behind my back or step on my head because they know i am weak when it comes to heart matters.

fyi, i don't care and all i know now is to enjoy.

so don't blame me if i forget some of you assholes. that's the only way to open your eyes wide and find me back. this is proven okay. toodles.

fuck my life

2009-11-09T18:00:00.004+08:00

7/11 is the date imran turns a year older so, happy belated birthday to him.

sorry i didn't wish you happy birthday on the day itself.

feeling fucked up and stressed nowadays.

i know its a lame excuse, lol. happy belated birthday anyways! :D

put that aside, i didnt go to work just because my dad didn't allow me to go to work.(Y)

i really need to change my attitude, my attitude have gone from good to fucking worse.

no more sleeping over my friends' houses, no more thonning practically everyday and going back home damn late. i need to change and promise myself i won't repeat all these mistakes. i need to please my parents too. i know i said i do not live my life to please everybody

but parents is a must. thanks A for opening my eyes.

your harsh words make me realise that. thanks a lot.

thanks D for the comfort you gave me yesterday when i was in need of comfort badly even though you know i was mad at you.

thanks Berg for the advise you gave me, now i feel better :)

friends, help me out please? i hate that i can't discipline myself.

fuck myself. lol, that sounds so wrong :P

now, i live to please my parents and my closest friends.

to D, i wonder if you are willing to be my close friend? i bet you won't because you can't share your problems with me. i wonder why.

i hate it that i can't be there for you like how you've been there for me.

to N, sorry i didnt meet you today, i can't go out :(

aku bahan bila dia bored (Y)

2009-11-09T01:53:00.003+08:00

when i listen to beauty in the breakdown, i immediately thought of you and miss you but i see no point in it because in the end you cant even bother to be a close friend of mine. kalau kau dah malas nak layan just because of the little setback that you got from your previous relationship, you are fucking weak. to you, it may be a huge setback but if you known what i've been through in my life and previous relationships, you'll see how fortunate you are. i am not boasting or whatever here. don't think that you are the only one who has bad relationships, other people also does but they take the courage to pick themselves up after every set back. 'A' says that i am weak for not picking myself up after every setbacks, but i think you are much more weaker than i am. at least when i go to my friends and complain and cry, i will feel better and slowly pick myself up.

have the courage. everyone is there for you.

kau dah mnl aku, aku pun mnl kau kay? i wanna care for you also, it's no use because you won't even appreciate it. you say i am your good friend, but you dont even bother to show it because you are scared that i will think that u are falling in love with me? please lah, i know how to differentiate. fyi, afiq also use to say that to me. whatever you say to me all this while is the same as what afiq says. so tell me, i am feeling the pain and hurt twice the times. banyak nye kau nye promise to be always there for me. friends don't mess up with their friends' minds. ah fuck of la, cb. i had enough of caring other people's feelings and pleasing them, but end up, i feel shitty. _|_

i don't live to please others and to impress people, fyi.

i need some ego in me, please.

thanks for being there when i need you but i guess you do not want to be friends with me anymore cos i bother your life. so goodbye.

starbucks<3

2009-11-06T14:51:00.003+08:00

4 days of starbucks's barista training lessons is over! :)

i am happy yet sad. happy that i dont need to travel all the way to commonwealth for the lessons and sad that i am gonna miss the crazy and most friendly people i've met especially ian.lol, visit him at V2 when i've got the time. lol, pyscho :P

see you guys when i see you! love ya.

my life has been a repeat mode for the past 4 days i attend the lessons.

go for the lessons from 6pm to 10pm and then hang out with friends till 5 or 6am. then it repeats again.i was thinking that on wednesday night when i got home from class, i wanted to sleep but afiq called and i hang out with him till 2 or 3 am, texted dan and his turn to ask me out to hang out cos he was super bored, lol. so cute. hmm, met him and chilled till around 5 am. imagine, i only got to sleep at around 6am and i had to wake up at 9am for my barista lesson.

i was late for the class for 15 mins. lol, sayang kau punya pasal la aku lepak ngn kau :)

thursday, met up with ain and epul. then to dinno's house to meet the rest. berg and raisha came and then after a while i realise i was the only girl there at dinno's house. took the bicycle with dan to meet fatyn. sort everything out, fuck it lah. and ton at fatyn's father house till 6 am.

the morning breeze is damn awesome.

i love it that i get to spend more time with you individually

and talk about everything with you. :)

all i need to do now is to pray hard and wait.

imy

2009-11-03T14:23:00.003+08:00

yay, at last i've got to hang out with my two bitches! :)

but asyraf menyibuk smlm ada. LOL, just kidding.

hang out with them till 0520am and many things were shared.

this is why i love them, we can talk about almost anything together. :D

i am so glad i got to meet eeka even though only for few hours. after 11th nov kay babe!

her birthday is coming soon and i am cashless. faiz's bday too. mampos! *mati*

today, i am gonna go for my 2nd class! aiyaaa, lazy wanna go commonwealth ley.

lost

2009-11-03T00:06:00.007+08:00

omg, i miss these girls. i miss hanging out with rachael, sabu, raisha and eeka.

padahal raisha baru jumpa on sunday. LOL.

first barista lesson was alright for me. there's this cute eurasian guy in my class.

omg, but he's 16 -.- i am such a phaedophile. LOL.

after class, met up with ain, epul,imran, dinno and dan near their house.

headed home after that. gonna meet fatyn soon :)

i need to meet my confidant soon. i have a lot of things to talk about to you.

i am so sad right now. he's not entertaining me already. i think he likes someone else already.

it's just not my luck :(

btw, it was fun tonn-ing with you guys (nas, shaiful,dan,dinno,ain and fatyn).

the cycling journey with fatyn was funny, it will always be kept in my memories.

lol, tripping many times baby and dan, i am not fat. you will always tumpang me, ride the bicycle as if there's someone fat. cb.

to HD

2009-11-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

Edited/

i've realised that no matter how much i lie to myself, my feelings for you still remains the same.

i feel so helpless. i know i need to change my feelings and that is to like you as a friend only because i know that you won't bother to know or care about my feelings.

i feel like we're not like how we were last time, joking with each other and such. *sad face*

i miss sharing my problems with you, lying down on your lap, to be in your arms, you playing the guitar and singing for me by the beach and everything with you.

now i feel like i can't express anything to you straightforward and comfortably because i am scared that you will feel sad and stressed.

i wanna ask you a lot of questions but every time when i meet you,

i am clueless on how to ask.

why am i so serious? lol, fuck it and live my life. i need to be happy and so does others.

(Y)

saturday,31st october

2009-11-02T15:09:00.004+08:00

the day that take over perform, i had the biggest bad hair day. (Y)

my hair was damn messy and unmanageable that i feel like crying. LOL.

it was the first gig for take over and it was awesome for me. after their performance, they went off to jb for another gig and the girls had their girls day out. finally, we had our girls day out!

it was great hanging out with the girls only. roam around bugis and then to city hall.

pictures taken, raisha went back home and the rest of us went back to black hole to watch ragdoll epilogue perform. Touche and break your fucking neck is still the best for me. :)

this is all for friendship, if not for friendship, i won't have to be there. (Y)

toodles, gonna get ready to go for barista classes at commonwealth .

I AM SO GONNA BE LATE!

MATI.

overdue.

2009-10-31T12:36:00.003+08:00

they're so gay.

taken when sepet was in singapore. sepet, new friend from malaysia :D

kay, goodbye. i'll blog about yesterday later.

?

2009-10-31T03:52:00.003+08:00

the other night when i was with A, we were listening to ' My Love' by the sallys.

it used to be our song but when i listen to the song with A, i was thinking about someone else.

this should prove to everyone that i've moved on. don't assume.

i kinda missing the relationship i used to have whereby a girl and a boy care for each other, hold each other hands, kiss and hug each other with no string attached. haha.

can i have someone to hold me in their arms, hold my hands when i am down, kiss me on the cheeks and care for me ? but the thing is, i don't want to be in a relationship. so how?

will there be anyone that will do that for me? lol, just being random.

but i will love to be in that kind of r/s.